mY wIsHLiSt tHiNgy..

For this upcoming holiday,I need MUST buy all these thingy in Kuantan..Since it's quite difficult and limited choices to buy such stuff in KB.. 

• A NEW PURSE...the old one is kinda need to be replaced wif a new one...budget: RM50-RM60
• A NEW WATCH..wanna buy a QUITE BRANDED one..hihi..budget: RM150++
• PAIRS OF JEANS and TROUSERS..budget: RM120
• anything else??? hmm,need to be decided later...

I love you but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.


11th grade 

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later 

 That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.


Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried. 

Dilema...

ketika malam penuh bintang

di antara cahya temaram

kau beri aku kesejukan

tapi hatiku bimbang

aku ingin tapi ku tak bisa

apakah ini nyata atau mimpi belaka

ku takut rindu bila tak lagi bertemu

haruskah ku terima cinta yang dilema

kau tanya apakah ku bisa

membuka hatiku untukmu

ku tak bisa berkata kata

airmata yang bicara

sesungguhnya ku ingin dirimu

tuk cairkan hatiku yang beku

tapi aku belum siap

aku jadi dilema

aku tak mau menyakitimu

karna hati ini masih ragu

tapi aku butuh cinta

aku jadi dilema

STOP it..

To whom it may concern,

Please...

Stop playing games with my heart,

No more love games,

No more "tarik tali",

I'm tired,

Everytime I think about it,

Please do so ok,

I had enough,

Really,I really mean it...

"You won't admit that you love me

And so how am I got to know?

So if you really love me

then,just say it..."

nape mesti berasa cemburu??!!!!

my eyes of jealousy...

Argghh!!! damn it...

nape perasaan ni mesti ade pada aku???

pdhal DIA bkn ade pape pon ngan aku..

AKU dan DIA kawan biasa jer kot..

tp,setiap kali kalau ala2 ada orang yg nk usha DIA,

AKU rasa camni...

Ni semua salah DIA,

kalau DIA tak bagi hints yang pelik-pelik dulu,

mesti tak jadi camni..

terasa cam aku seorang je yang perasantan..

Uh...kompleks tol la...

AKU SUKA DIA ??

~mesti la suka kan..kalau tak suka,takkan jadi kawan aku lak..

AKU SAYANG DIA ??

~sayang sebagai sahabat,sudah semestinya...

kalau lebih drpd itu,aku tak pasti..

tapi,tak salahkan kalau aku sayangkan seseorang 

lebih drpd seorang kawan kan??

AKU CINTA DIA ??

~rasanya masih belum sampai ke tahap itu lagi..

it takes time,for me,to develop that feeling,

but it's not impossible..

hanya masa yang akan menentukannya..

just wanna wait & see what's gonna happen next..

WANITA INI...

Wanita ibarat EPAL...

EPAL yang tidak berkualiti amat senang diperolehi kerana IA berguguran di tanah...

Tetapi EPAL yang tak mampu dibeli berada di puncak...

SUSAH digapai...

Terkadang EPAL itu risau,mengapa diriku belum dipetik?

Lantas dia merendahkan dan menggugurkan dirinya menyembah tanah...

Sedangkan ALLAH telah jadikan begitu TINGGI martabatnya hingga tiada siapa yang berani memetiknya...

Hanya PEMUDA yang benar-benar HEBAT sahaja yang mampu menggapainya...

mungkin bukan di dunia tapi di akhirat sana...

Biarlah JODOH bukan di dunia tapi di akhirat nanti...

"Hawa dijadikan dari rusuk kanan Adam

Bukan dari kepalanya untuk dijunjung,

Bukan pula dari kakinya uttuk dijadikan pengalas,

Tetapi dari sisinya untuk dijadikan teman hidup,

Dekat dengan lengan untuk dilindungi,

Dekat dengan hati untuk dicintai."

     Ya ALLAH,jauhkanlah diriku dan wanita-wanita lain daripada menjatuhkan martabat kaum itu sendiri...Berilah hidayah kepada kami untuk dapat menjadi perempuan-perempuan yang baik, yang selalu mentaati perintah-perintah Allah dan rasulNya. Dan jodohkan lah kami dengan lelaki yang baik.. Amin.

BENGANG siott!!!!!!!!

bengang mmg bengang..bkn lagu Akim tu..tp,psl sumthing yg berlaku pg ni..

tu la..pagi2 buta ag da wat aku emo...aku emo bersebab..bkn suke2 nk emo..tp tu lah..bkn member yg wat aku bengang pg2 ni dan bkn juge pakwe<--mmg xde pon..

ok la,back to my story...

bgn jer pg ni,da lambat...klas Statistik kul 8 pg,bgn kul 7.23..mmg kalut gler t pg td..tp,seb bek sempat smpi tepat pd waktunye..dlm klas,leh lak En Mazlan ade nk tukar waktu klas yg kul 12 tu..sbbnye die nk anta anak die yg bersekolah waktu ptg..bkn 1 klas tp 2..da la klas aku ni byk clash..ye r,byk repeat kot..satu hal lak nk adjust smule jadual aku...da la susah,tukar satu klas,sume kne rombak blek..abis jer klas,ingt nk jmpe r die smula,nk discuss blekk..tp,die xde..jmpe lak Che Mazlan (kimia)..nk tnye die klas hri ni ade ke x..tu jer..pastu,die ckp En Wan(KJ)ckp xyah wat personal class sbbnye die da adjust..sume klas tu aku ley msk..malsalahnye,ble di'check', 1 klas jer kot yg aku ley msk..yg len clash ngan subjek sem ni cam BIO & CSC..pastu cam tak pakai otak jer ckp ngan aku..tau r aku ade repeat & carry subjek sem ni.abis tu,klu repeat,kteorg ni xde peluang r nk betulkan diri..mmg anggap kteorg yg repeat ni hopeless..da xley nk ubah..pastu ley lak nk sindir2.."awak drop je la subjek ni,amik tahun depan..".tak ke krg ajar bunyi ayat tu..SAKIT GLER ATI AKU...FED UP!!!

ble kte jmpe nk tanya psal klas,die kata xyah dtg la..amik sem depan la..hape la...ble kte xdtg klas byk kli,mule r tnye nape xdtg,nk telefon parent la..anta warning letter,sume2 tu la...BENGONG TOL LAA!!!

PEDIH

kadang-kadang aku tak faham dgn kau

kenapa kau tegar lafazkankan kata-kata tu pada aku

kenapa kau tergamak meluahkannya

apakah aku ini tiada erti dalam hidup kau??

siapa aku pada kau??

siapa aku dalam hidup kau??

siapa aku dalam hati kau??

bila kau sunyi,kau datang...

bila kau tak suka,kau keluarkan kata-kata yg menyakitkan hati aku..

kesalahan kecil yang sengaja kau besar-besarkan

kau tak tahu

betapa sakitnya hati aku

betapa pedihnya hati aku

hati aku bagai disiat-siat

setiap kali aku ingat kembali

kata-kata yang pernah kau lafazkan pada aku dulu

aku menangis dalam diam,

aku menangis di dalam hati,

tiada siapa yang tahu,

tak tahu harus ku luahkan pada siapa

aku hanya manusia biasa

punya hati,punya perasaan

jangan sampai rasa kasih aku terhadap kau hilang

jangan sampai rasa hormat aku pada kau luput

jangan sampai aku pula yang meletus suatu ketika nanti

jangan sampai semuanya sudah terlambat

baru kau sedari

semua yang pernah kau lakukan pada aku

jangan....

AKU MUNGKIN AKAN MEMAAFKANKAN KAU TAPI AKU TIDAK AKAN LUPA APA YANG PERNAH LAKUKAN PADA AKU...

TAK AKAN PERNAH!!

hatiku hancur mengenang dikau...

~tiada terlintas langsung niat untuk berdendam tetapi,inilah kenyataan yang harus kau dan aku terima...nanti